It's a new month. This means a good place for a fresh start.
If you're my friend on FB, you'll know I spent almost ALL of January sick in bed, not eating, barely moving, wasting away. However, on the 20th I had an iron infusion, and then a week later some more diagnostics, and we now know what is properly wrong with me. I'm still broken, but it's a different kind of broken to what we had been previously told.
But that is not what this post is about.
This post is about how I'm feeling better. I'm finally eating again, I'm still sick, but I'm optimistic. Yes, the new diagnosis is worse. But I'm determined that I will rule it, it will not rule me.
So, on that note, I'm going to outline some things I'm doing for the better.
If you're my friend on FB, you'll know I spent almost ALL of January sick in bed, not eating, barely moving, wasting away. However, on the 20th I had an iron infusion, and then a week later some more diagnostics, and we now know what is properly wrong with me. I'm still broken, but it's a different kind of broken to what we had been previously told.
But that is not what this post is about.
This post is about how I'm feeling better. I'm finally eating again, I'm still sick, but I'm optimistic. Yes, the new diagnosis is worse. But I'm determined that I will rule it, it will not rule me.
So, on that note, I'm going to outline some things I'm doing for the better.
Cooking
I'm trying to cook more meals at my house, for many reasons.
Trying new recipes, I want to expand my cooking repertoire. I want to learn new recipes, and I also want to try healthier cooking. The town I live in has like, zero fast food options, which is good, and it is forcing me to think outside the box, and look up recipes. This has led to a slight www.pinterest.com addiction, but there are so many good ideas there, I can't resist.
So far I have made nachos, spaghetti with vodka cream sauce, tuna rostis, devilled sausages, and potato bake, and there are many more new culinary adventures to come.
I also am cooking more because I am feeling better and can handle it, but also because I want to contribute to my house. My parents both work full time now (only a recent development, mum just started a new job) and I'm too sick to work, so I'm at home all day. I spend the day thinking about what I'm going to cook for them to arrive home to. So far it is working well.
Things might change a bit when it comes time for me to return to university, because I'll be commuting and arriving home late too, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Plus, it'll be cooling down into winter soon, so I will get to try some of the amazing crock pot (slow cooker) recipes I have found. :)
Blogging
I'm going to try and blog more. My blog has been a bit neglected, and I think my FB friends might get a bit sick of me sharing my culinary adventures and my health woes (although having said that, I DO try to keep my health issues off FB... FB is supposed to be more for social fun!), so I'm going to try and write more blog posts, about food, about my health and anything that crosses my mind.
It's not going to be literary genius, of course, but I think it will be a good place to write what I'm thinking, and I don't actually care if anyone reads it or not. It's more for me. Cos sometimes, the thoughts chasing around my brain drive me nuts, and don't help the stupid insomnia. That's why I also keep a pen and paper by my bed, cos I find if I write it down, it gets out of my head and leaves me alone, and I can fall asleep a bit easier! :)
It's not going to be literary genius, of course, but I think it will be a good place to write what I'm thinking, and I don't actually care if anyone reads it or not. It's more for me. Cos sometimes, the thoughts chasing around my brain drive me nuts, and don't help the stupid insomnia. That's why I also keep a pen and paper by my bed, cos I find if I write it down, it gets out of my head and leaves me alone, and I can fall asleep a bit easier! :)
Medicine
I WILL take my medication. Because although the side effects suck (insomnia, hallucinations, swelling of my legs/feet/ankles, reduced bone density... the list goes on)... it IS making me feel better. I feel normal. I feel like I can go out and not have to panic if I can't see a restroom at all times.
Plus, I kinda HAVE to take my medication, because it's such a high, potent dose that if I stop it suddenly, I actually could die. Like no shit. Dead. Bam. So yeah. That kinda scares me into taking it.
Yoga/Pilates
I'm going to try it. No guarantees. But this month I will TRY. I need to build my muscles back up, cos of the wastage I've had from being in bed for 20+ consecutive days.
Positives
Positives
I'm trying to stay positive. I'm trying to look forwards. I spent a good hour or so chatting to a friend the other day about my 5ish year plan, and I'm so excited. There are so many things I want to do and so little time to do it. It includes graduating, travelling, maybe even saving for a house deposit to get into the property market, getting a good job, all sorts. I want to get my independence. I've always said I don't want to live with my parents past the age of 25, it's my goal to move out by then, but while I'm a poor university student, it just totally makes monetary sense to live with them. :)
Ok, that's all for now. But I have lots of other things I am excited about February for, but mostly it's getting better, and getting back on track, ready for university on MARCH 5TH!!!! Weehooo!! I'm so going stir cray-zay at home, so I'm very excited to get out of here in a month for my studies. I have very exciting papers this year, they aren't actually the classes I wanted to do the most, but I'm going to make the most out of them, because the ones I REALLY wanted to do all clashed. :( But, STAYING positive, its going to be a good year. I PLAN on it.
