For some reason I'm feeling incredibly blah right now. I'm tired, unmotivated, can't be bothered making small talk, just want to crawl into my bed and sleep for the rest of the week. I wake up in the morning, already looking forward to going to bed at night. I watch the clock at work, willing it to be 2pm already. I see nobody except those I have to see as I go about my daily routine - ie. work mates and my parents. I don't go out. I feel like I haven't laughed in forever. People pick pathetic fights with me (I swear, I don't ask for it. It just seems to happen a fair amount... I don't think I'm that controversial am I?) and it feels like they are massive and are going to take over my life.
The weird thing is, I can't actually pinpoint why. A few separate issues I've already resolved. I already worked out that my lips were chapped and dry cos I didn't drink as much water over the hols as I should have. I worked out that I had a stomach ache from ice cream. But this one stumps me. This one's in my head.
If I can't work out the cause, how can I fix it?
It might have something to do with all the changes right now... starting university, moving to another town (further away from uni than I already am!), my mum quitting her job...
I think I'll just try and sleep this one off.
Goodnight.
i hate periods of my life that feel like this. But they do seem to be temporary. Hope you're doing better now that you're at uni!
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